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Molly Freedenberg's avatar

My 🌀💜 sister had cancer and it absolutely changed her on almost every level. Even the look in her eyes is different. But most notably her ability and willingness to put up with any bullshit that exhausts or upsets her has nearly disappeared. It’s like she’s connected deeply to who she really is and to what’s truly important in life, and is unafraid of death, and she can’t forget what she knows now that she’s well again. Plus she’s aware her time could be limited, and so wasting it feels unbearable. It’s actually very cool and inspiring, though for such a painful reason.

I think also she’s just seen so much of the dark side - the pain, the fear, the misery of chemo - that it’s weird to relate to the mundanity of regular human life again. And especially to anyone who wasn’t there or supportive during that time.

The whole experience was a lens that seems to have shifted how she sees everyone and everything.

So it makes sense to me Catherine would be different now, and protecting herself, and more able to say no. Who cares about upsetting some royal handlers when you’ve met Death?

What makes me sad about Kate in particular, though, and maybe my sister too, is the loss of that sparkly joyous spontaneous purple. I think for Kate it was royal life. For my sis it’s illness and family life. I hope both of them find a way to get it back.

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Mystic Michaela's avatar

That’s beautiful that as a sister you’re able to see her in this way and allow her to be who she is now and feel seen and accepted. It’s a gift to have people like you around in life when things are difficult

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Molly Freedenberg's avatar

Thank you * watery eye emoji *

She's a gift to me too.

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Erin's avatar

This is such a deep reflection and very profound. “Who cares when you’ve met Death” gave me chills. Thank you for sharing! As a 💜💙🌀 I needed to read that

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Karli's avatar

How does the bluedigo recover from being so overwhelmed? Especially when they feel everything 💙🌀

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Mystic Michaela's avatar

Alone time! And time with those who they feel really comfortable around. Sometimes blues/bludigos and especially indigos need to be alone to sit only in their own energy to feel better

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Karli's avatar

Oh yes that hits home! and it would be a complete 180 for those around the blue/bluedigo to witness that. A role reversal for those around them to now take care of the bluedigo

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Yesi's avatar

I learn so much from your aura doodles! I thought if one color was “on top” of the other it was always this way. I’m again shocked at how much life auras have. As a 💜💙 myself I relate and feel for her so much. Especially the need to get away to recover. I still sometimes feel guilty when I do it but I always feel more ready to give to others when I address my own needs first.

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Mystic Michaela's avatar

It’s hard for the blues to know that when they take care of themselves they are actually more help to their loved ones… but it’s a journey

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Kayla's avatar

I feel like we need a support group for🌀💙💜… It could be just a group chat where no one ever texts or responds, but we all feel warm and fuzzy from our telepathic support for one another.

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